I have completely fallen off the bandwagon.

First of all, my dieting sucks. I can't stick to one... I'm an emotional, obsessive eater and I have absolutely no physical activity going on in my life anyway. I was weighed at the doctor's office last week and I have put on over 15 pounds.

Instead of doing something about it, I cried.

I have a dog that needs walking and no day-job. And yet, I sit on the damn couch every day, and drink a glass of wine every night. What the hell do I think I is going to happen??

I am depressed and angry about being so depressed and angry. I want to be thin, healthy, active, happy. All of the above. But I am so lost in my own anger that I can't get up off the couch and fix it.

I have 2 options. I either buckle down, start being active and stop eating so damn much... or I just get fat. Like I am doing now. And clearly, this second option makes me completely miserable.

I guess there is no time like the present.